Weighing Things

I feel like I know myself fairly well at this point in my life. I know what motivates me and what doesn’t.

Being angry at myself does NOT motivate me and push me to work harder. I know it works like that for some people, but not for me. Publicly flogging myself does not often motivate me (although it’s probably necessary from time to time). For me, if I can pull something, anything, that I can truly call a success, no matter how small, no matter how insignificant it might seem, or how much I have to stretch to get there, THAT motivates me.

Right now, while I’m injured, I have decided that I’m not going to do weekly weigh-ins here on my blog. Note that I am not saying that I have given in to eating like crap every day and given up trying to get back running and dancing. I also did not say I was not stepping on the scale.

What I need to focus on right now is taking care of my injury and slowly getting back to the gym and to the activities that I love, as soon as my body is ready. I have to be willing to be gentle with my body and take things slow, maybe even take two steps back after I feel like I’ve taken one step forward. I don’t want to focus on my weight right now, publicly. Mainly because I think it’s inevitable that with my sudden and dramatic decrease in activity I’m going to gain back some weight. I know I can deal with that when I get fully back from my injury, because I was doing it before and I’ll do it again. For now, if I can pretty much maintain (+ or – 3 pounds) and heal, that’s enough for me.

Plans may change, of course, if I have to go a very long period without being able to truly get back to my fitness plan. IF that occurs I’ll have to really rethink my diet and eating all over again, and I will share that…but I really don’t anticipate that.

Feel free to comment if you think that I’m making the wrong choice here. I value your opinions!

Weigh-in Wednesday 5: The “But it’s Thursday” Edition

I was out sick from work yesterday, but I dragged my butt to the scale early in the morning, I just didn’t post about it.

Thoughts off the scale

I have high hopes for this week. I feel like I did a lot of things right.

Weight goals

Small goals: a pound a week, slow and steady.

Larger goal: 199, to be below 200 for the first time in my adult life.

Overall goal: Not sure about this yet, I really don’t like to look too far ahead because it all starts to feel overwhelming and nearly impossible. I know it’s not, so I’m going to hold off on a long-range goal.

Starting Weight: 227

Last Week’s Weight: 223.8

Today’s Weight: 221.8

Loss this week: 2lbs

Total loss: 5.2 lbs

Thoughts after the scale:  Yay!!!!!


 


Weigh-in Wednesday 4: The But I Don’t Wanna Edition

 

Mirror update: Check for a post in a little bit that actually contains fairly recent (Tuesday 3/13) full body photographs. Still no mirror.

Thoughts off the scale

I did better with eating this week. My only real indulgence was Texas Roadhouse. But I kind of resented everything about working out and eating right this week, because I think I have looked the same for a while and I want everything to GO. FASTER. Without, of course, reducing my calorie intake. My body seems to be holding on to everything, but a few friends have told me this is a part of the process, so I’ll just keep slogging on. Dear Spare Tire–I won’t quit, you can’t make me. So no matter what the scale says this week, there’s next week and the next….I’ll get it right eventually.

Weight goals

Small goals: a pound a week, slow and steady.

Larger goal: 199, to be below 200 for the first time in my adult life.

Overall goal: Not sure about this yet, I really don’t like to look too far ahead because it all starts to feel overwhelming and nearly impossible. I know it’s not, so I’m going to hold off on a long-range goal.

Starting Weight: 227

Last Week’s Weight: 224.8

Today’s Weight: 223.8

Thoughts after the scale: Gee, that number looks familiar. ::Sigh:: Well, a pound down is a pound down, even if it is one I thought I already lost once, right?  Today starts a clean slate.

I MAY NOT BE THE LIGHTEST

Do you ever have weeks where even the things that are always easy seem hard?

Currently Faking Fit

My name is Lo and I’ve decided to join the ranks of those brave individuals who blog about their fitness journey. I’m also going to try to make this the only post in which I use the phrase “fitness journey.” Yet it is, without a doubt, an accurate, though overused, description of a large part of my life.

The basics about me: I’m 35 and I really don’t know how that happened.  I’m 227lbs right now–I can tell you how that happened. The highest I’ve been is 243lbs. The lowest I’ve been since adulthood is 209lbs. The low was achieved on Weight Watchers, but didn’t last long after I stopped counting points. In January 2012 I started working out at my local Planet Fitness 4 times a week. I’ve been line dancing on Tuesday nights and Friday nights for about a year now. This is really the first time I’ve ever worked hard at combining exercise and eating healthy.

I live in a cute little apartment in eastern PA with my dog, Kasey. I have trouble finding places to put on all my books. I’m horrible at math. My best friend is tall and skinny and is my workout buddy. I like Brussels Sprouts. I sleep on my stomach. I don’t have a TV. I tend to ramble…

My goals for this blog:

Honesty: I may not tell you everything, but what I tell you will be true.

Accountability: I would love to have regular readers of this blog who will wonder why I haven’t posted about working out for two days and ask about it. But also, I will write boring “stats” posts to have on record to keep myself accountable.

Opportunity: I’d like the opportunity to share this process with you. Because people who are fighting this fight, you know how hard it is, and maybe feeling I’m there with you will make it just a little bit easier. And people for whom this particular battle has never been a problem–oh how I envy you that–I’d like to give you the opportunity to draw parallels to your own particular fights, because I know everyone is fighting something in this world.

Long range, I would love to see this blog create opportunities for me in many different ways. I’d love to have the opportunity to meet people who get something out of this blog. I’d love to have adventures because I write this blog. I’d love to be given the opportunity to write elsewhere because of this blog. All that is way down the road.

But here, today, I’m taking the first step.